Laid around, loving my embies and visualizing them looking around, smiling, sighing (like you do when you know you're home) and snuggling in.
Please, embies, snuggle in and stay for a while.
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Snuggling In
What did I do today, you ask?
Laid around, loving my embies and visualizing them looking around, smiling, sighing (like you do when you know you're home) and snuggling in.
Please, embies, snuggle in and stay for a while.
Laid around, loving my embies and visualizing them looking around, smiling, sighing (like you do when you know you're home) and snuggling in.
Please, embies, snuggle in and stay for a while.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Little Loves
I'm PUPO! And very happy.
Quite a different experience from the first embryo transfer. I remember being super nervous and keyed up. Also, the clinic had a waiting room full of people. Even the procedure room had several people buzzing around and it was so hot in there. I remember a tense feeling coming from Dr. AA during my first procedure. I had a constant, nagging fickle back and forth feeling of ... it's going to work...no it's not.
Today was wonderful though. I seemed to be the only patient there and I felt like a queen. The Dr was relaxed and everyone was just wonderful. Dr. AA said he had a good feeling...and I don't even care if he says that to everyone.
As for me, I have a good feeling too. An abnormally good, great, awesome feeling. I've rarely felt such a strong feeling of confidence and well-being. And an overwhelming feeling of love for my embryos. I was nearly giddy with it. I was able to quickly disarm the couple negative thoughts I had and send them packing. I guess the Reiki, acupuncture and good mojo from the blogosphere has permeated and surrounded me, blocking any negativity.
I don't think I'm going to POAS or even get my first beta result. I want to love and care for these embryos to the best of my ability and cherish every moment of being pregnant, no matter what happens.
Second beta: Wednesday, June 15.
My little loves:
Quite a different experience from the first embryo transfer. I remember being super nervous and keyed up. Also, the clinic had a waiting room full of people. Even the procedure room had several people buzzing around and it was so hot in there. I remember a tense feeling coming from Dr. AA during my first procedure. I had a constant, nagging fickle back and forth feeling of ... it's going to work...no it's not.
Today was wonderful though. I seemed to be the only patient there and I felt like a queen. The Dr was relaxed and everyone was just wonderful. Dr. AA said he had a good feeling...and I don't even care if he says that to everyone.
As for me, I have a good feeling too. An abnormally good, great, awesome feeling. I've rarely felt such a strong feeling of confidence and well-being. And an overwhelming feeling of love for my embryos. I was nearly giddy with it. I was able to quickly disarm the couple negative thoughts I had and send them packing. I guess the Reiki, acupuncture and good mojo from the blogosphere has permeated and surrounded me, blocking any negativity.
I don't think I'm going to POAS or even get my first beta result. I want to love and care for these embryos to the best of my ability and cherish every moment of being pregnant, no matter what happens.
Second beta: Wednesday, June 15.
My little loves:
Monday, June 6, 2011
I'm Ready
Just now, as I was leaving Dad's this evening, my car wouldn't start. Dad looked at it and after quite a bit of troubleshooting said something I've rarely, if ever heard him say regarding mechanical issues, "I don't have a clue." It will probably have to be towed. I'm grateful, however, because it happened in the driveway of my favorite mechanic. I shudder to think about this happening in Chicago or ,God forbid, tomorrow on the way to our embryo transfer.
I spent the morning pampering myself with new hair color, pedicure and a Reiki session. Reiki Lady says my system is strong and ready to support a pregnancy. She asked me to do a lot of visualizing about what I'll be like in the days after the transfer when I'm pregnant.
I've had a few moments these past few weeks when I can feel the spirit or energy of the new babies around me. Greyson's energy is always with me of course and it always feels like a very calm energy to me. These new children always seem to be giggling in the few moments I've felt their energy near me. I've sensed that they are one boy and one girl. Reiki Lady said they were playful spirits and that she sensed the energy of two boys and a girl but one of the boys may be Greyson. She said Greyson is fully supportive of my going forward with the new babies.
I spent the afternoon in frantic nesting mode doing things that I hope I won't be able to do for a while such as burning the brush pile, cleaning the garage and spray painting some of Dad's metal floral sculptures.
I'm READY. I feel confident and ready.
Tomorrow I will be pregnant.
Even my little piggies are ready:
I spent the morning pampering myself with new hair color, pedicure and a Reiki session. Reiki Lady says my system is strong and ready to support a pregnancy. She asked me to do a lot of visualizing about what I'll be like in the days after the transfer when I'm pregnant.
I've had a few moments these past few weeks when I can feel the spirit or energy of the new babies around me. Greyson's energy is always with me of course and it always feels like a very calm energy to me. These new children always seem to be giggling in the few moments I've felt their energy near me. I've sensed that they are one boy and one girl. Reiki Lady said they were playful spirits and that she sensed the energy of two boys and a girl but one of the boys may be Greyson. She said Greyson is fully supportive of my going forward with the new babies.
I spent the afternoon in frantic nesting mode doing things that I hope I won't be able to do for a while such as burning the brush pile, cleaning the garage and spray painting some of Dad's metal floral sculptures.
I'm READY. I feel confident and ready.
Tomorrow I will be pregnant.
Even my little piggies are ready:
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Gleeful Homecoming
We headed out this morning still laughing and squeeing on a Glee high to the best (and only) breakfast place I know of in the Windy City:
I was in heaven with THE BEST hot chocolate I've ever tasted!
Then we got turned around finding downtown Chicago due to a GPS malfunction so we headed home instead after a brief stop at Ikea (JS!). Being a seasoned Chicago visitor, I wasn't too disappointed for myself at not having time to sightsee but was a little let down for RM as it was her first trip there. She kept smiling though, still on that Glee cloud.
We've decided to make it an annual Glee pilgrimage if we can, however, I believe this will remain the unsurpassed jumpstart to summer vacation.
Class? Students? School?
I'm not sure what those are but how 'bout I sing you a song?
I was in heaven with THE BEST hot chocolate I've ever tasted!
Then we got turned around finding downtown Chicago due to a GPS malfunction so we headed home instead after a brief stop at Ikea (JS!). Being a seasoned Chicago visitor, I wasn't too disappointed for myself at not having time to sightsee but was a little let down for RM as it was her first trip there. She kept smiling though, still on that Glee cloud.
We've decided to make it an annual Glee pilgrimage if we can, however, I believe this will remain the unsurpassed jumpstart to summer vacation.
Class? Students? School?
I'm not sure what those are but how 'bout I sing you a song?
Friday, June 3, 2011
Squeeee!!!!
One hour with the 4 kids that showed up, talking with a few parents who came to pick up report cards, a brief staff meeting and I'm DONE.
Freedom! FREEDOM! FREEDOM! FREEDOM!!!
(Sung in my Aretha voice)
Annnnddddd right after school....we headed up to Chicago (I'm an old pro now since I visited for the first time 2 weeks ago). This time I headed to Chi-town with co-workers RM, AT and AT's friend A to go to a concert.
What concert you may ask...not just any old concert but ...wait for it....
The GLEE concert!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, I'm a certified (certifiable?) GLEEK!! and proud of it!:
But before the concert I had a good laugh because AT and A spent about 3o minutes discussing the hairbands each of them would wear and if it went with what outfit and where they got said hairbands. I laughed because I'm so not the headband wearing type and even if I was I would wonder if they're age appropriate for me. AT and her friend are over 10 years younger than I. I'm a little embarrassed to admit:
they got RM and I to wear one too. League of Hairband Girls, gather round.
The concert was amazing and I don't use that word lightly. Those kids are so talented. I was jumping around, dancing in my seat, screaming, grabbing my friends. I felt just like a 15 year old again (so maybe the hairband was age appropriate afterall?) It was thrilling to see the characters I watch each week on TV live, singing and dancing in front of my very eyes. I just loved every song they sang.
"Don't Stop Believin" was the opening number:
(picture taken from a big screen)
The "Warblers" showed up:
"Puck" sang "Fatbottomed Girls" and made me want to get "Pucked":
"Kurt" was fabulous as only a gay show choir singer can be:
(picture taken from a big screen)
After the concert, we were very keyed up and AT wanted to go to the stage door to see if we could catch a glimpse of them leaving. Personally, I thought we'd just be waiting around forever and not see much. I'd heard of "groupies" but didn't realize this was something fans could actually do. Well, we waited around for a while and AT met a new friend. Finally, we were rewarded:
Lea Michele (Rachel Barry)
Chris Colfer (Kurt Hummel)
Harry Shrum (Mike Chang)
Ashley Fink (Ashley Zizes)
I was shocked and amazed that we saw so many actors from the show. Each and every one of them were very nice. We were able to talk to them a little and they gave many autographs. They were each more slender and beautiful in person. We were all totally, totally keyed up and thrilled.
I felt like a giddy teenager all night.
It was the BEST most GLEEFUL beginning of summer EVER!!!!
SQUEEEEE!!!!!!!!
Freedom! FREEDOM! FREEDOM! FREEDOM!!!
(Sung in my Aretha voice)
Annnnddddd right after school....we headed up to Chicago (I'm an old pro now since I visited for the first time 2 weeks ago). This time I headed to Chi-town with co-workers RM, AT and AT's friend A to go to a concert.
What concert you may ask...not just any old concert but ...wait for it....
The GLEE concert!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yes, I'm a certified (certifiable?) GLEEK!! and proud of it!:
But before the concert I had a good laugh because AT and A spent about 3o minutes discussing the hairbands each of them would wear and if it went with what outfit and where they got said hairbands. I laughed because I'm so not the headband wearing type and even if I was I would wonder if they're age appropriate for me. AT and her friend are over 10 years younger than I. I'm a little embarrassed to admit:
they got RM and I to wear one too. League of Hairband Girls, gather round.
The concert was amazing and I don't use that word lightly. Those kids are so talented. I was jumping around, dancing in my seat, screaming, grabbing my friends. I felt just like a 15 year old again (so maybe the hairband was age appropriate afterall?) It was thrilling to see the characters I watch each week on TV live, singing and dancing in front of my very eyes. I just loved every song they sang.
"Don't Stop Believin" was the opening number:
(picture taken from a big screen)
The "Warblers" showed up:
"Puck" sang "Fatbottomed Girls" and made me want to get "Pucked":
"Kurt" was fabulous as only a gay show choir singer can be:
(picture taken from a big screen)
After the concert, we were very keyed up and AT wanted to go to the stage door to see if we could catch a glimpse of them leaving. Personally, I thought we'd just be waiting around forever and not see much. I'd heard of "groupies" but didn't realize this was something fans could actually do. Well, we waited around for a while and AT met a new friend. Finally, we were rewarded:
Lea Michele (Rachel Barry)
Chris Colfer (Kurt Hummel)
Harry Shrum (Mike Chang)
Ashley Fink (Ashley Zizes)
I was shocked and amazed that we saw so many actors from the show. Each and every one of them were very nice. We were able to talk to them a little and they gave many autographs. They were each more slender and beautiful in person. We were all totally, totally keyed up and thrilled.
I felt like a giddy teenager all night.
It was the BEST most GLEEFUL beginning of summer EVER!!!!
SQUEEEEE!!!!!!!!
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Good Bye First Grade
Two hours tomorrow and then we're DONE with the 2010/2011 school year. For the first time in 13 years, I cried while giving my little goodbye speech. I was trying to tell them how I had enjoyed being their teacher and I was so proud of all the hard work we had done and they should be sure to visit me next year when they were big second graders. The tears just came. I was surprised that some of them cried a little too. These children were with me through the best and worst weeks of my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm very ready to see them go, but I'll never forget them.
Three injections tonight. I'm coming, babies, I'm coming.
Three injections tonight. I'm coming, babies, I'm coming.
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Stretch At School
Too much to do to be thinking about blogging or photos, but here I am taking a few moments to reclaim my sanity in this little corner of the 'net.
Stretch came with me to school today and was such a big help. She ran and carried for me doing everything I asked without complaining once even in the afternoon when we were all hot and sweaty. She completely won all my kids over. I think a few of them were ready to come home with us by the end of their time with her.
Stretch came with me to school today and was such a big help. She ran and carried for me doing everything I asked without complaining once even in the afternoon when we were all hot and sweaty. She completely won all my kids over. I think a few of them were ready to come home with us by the end of their time with her.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Goin' Bananas
End of year paperwork, packing up and cleaning the classroom, dealing with kids who are already DONE with school and DO NOT listen, coping with Swampbutt and crabby kids in a hot school, making awards and giving them at the awards assembly, dragging school stuff home, wondering what I'll be teaching next year, counseling appointment, acupuncture appointment, getting car and clothes ready for going out of town, getting blood drawn (4 sticks!), slamming shots into myself, lining check with Dr. AA, obsessively staring at the calendar, trying to get a little exercise.
One week from right now, I'll be pregnant.
But right now, I'm going bananas!
One week from right now, I'll be pregnant.
But right now, I'm going bananas!
Monday, May 30, 2011
Turn, Turn, Turn
This came up on shuffle today.
When I heard it I stopped wondering why my baby died and hers lived. Maybe someone else needs to hear it tonight too:
A time to plant:
When I heard it I stopped wondering why my baby died and hers lived. Maybe someone else needs to hear it tonight too:
A time to plant:
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