Beta #2 negative, of course.
What a total fool I was to think there was such happiness for me.
I laid around last week worried about what I'd do if they all stayed...it never occurred to me once that none of them would stay. How could I let myself be that certain?
What an idiot to be so damn confident that this was finally time for my family.
Life never works that way for me. I'm not meant for dreams. I have no idea what made me think I even had a chance.
I'm angry at myself for believing it could really happen...that it did happen.
Naive and stupid.
I'll never let the universe trick me like that again.
I'll be bitter and jaded for the rest of my life.
My poor embies....
There's no softness in my thoughts anywhere.
I won't be comforted.
My only baby...in denial that she's at the veterinarian's office...only if you look closely in her eyes do you see the anxiety.
Where the vet's assistant was about 11 months pregnant.
Are you done with me, Universe? Had enough laughs yet?
I'm awfully tired of being kicked around.