Sunday, June 12, 2011

TTW Craziness

Symptom Watch 2011:
~ Weird, mild cramps this morning.
~ Farting up a storm (Shut up, it's a symptom!)
~ A few panicky moments today when my "enjoy pregnancy whatever may come" attitude
failed me and I just knew my babies weren't with me. I thought I suddenly couldn't
feel their energy and I thought it meant they, or some of them or one of them had left.

A little batty you may think? Me too but unavoidable.

Still a way different experience from my first crazy train post transfer wait. What non-stop mental hand wringing I did. What an emotionally tormented wreck I was.

First beta is tomorrow and my clinic doesn't give you those results unless you request them sighting that it's the difference between the first and second beta that is the true positive.

Although I'm, for the most part, enjoying this PUPO time, I'm just not sure I'll be able to hold out till the second beta...

An early breakfast out at a local diner with Mom and Dad, then to church where I sat with my cousin, KR and her son. I've only been to this church a few times but we've never crossed paths.

An old railroad overpass was the subject for my camera this afternoon:

125/365

In my very young and dumb youth, I used to think that a boy writing your name on this bridge would be the height of romance.
Lovely Graffiti

This was a lucky shot, though I wish I had been able to get more of that cool car in the frame:
125/365 - 2

Somethings I saw scared me. This bridge doesn't seem to be in very good shape although you'd never know it just from driving under it. Trains go over this bridge multiple times a day.
Deteriorating Bridge

This guy was a bonus. He must have been very hungry because he allowed me to get quite close:
Butterfly on Thistle 2

12 comments:

  1. Well, looks like we're beta twins. Tomorrow I get mine as well. I hope it's good news for us both. :)

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  2. I'm thinking of you. You are holding it together so much better than I would be. By the way, I LOVE all of today's shots. They make me think of home.

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  3. I can't wait to hear! Praying for great news this week, Paige!

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  4. First of all, your pics are astounding. I, too, used to think that having your names with a heart in the middle was the absolute height of romance. Little did we know...
    I feel like the nervous father pacing the floor back and forth waiting to hear about the baby...I'm hoping and praying and just wish there was something I could do to make you feel better. Love ya and I hope that we get great news soon.

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  5. Great pics.

    I don't think you're batty at all, just honest. We all have those kind of thoughts, at least I did. I believe the energy thing too.

    Good luck tomorrow.

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  6. Praying for you!!!! And you're right farting is a symptom ;)

    Hoping you get good news!!!

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  7. I've been doing a horrible job at following along with anything in blogland lately so I'm just this morning reading we're already near beta time. Many good wishes coming your way in the coming days.
    I love all the farm pictures.

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  8. Farting absolutely is a symptom! Hoping & praying for you.

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  9. Praying for great beta news today!!!! I was farting like crazy last week and thought I was pregnant too, I think it's a great sign! :)

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  10. Wishing you a good beta number tomorrow and a even better one a few days later. Keeping my thoughts and prayers with you!

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  11. I am hoping you'll be joining me in twin pregnancy land!

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  12. Oooh, that butterfly shot is lovely!

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