S has decided to have gastric bypass. She only weighs a little more than me but she has a myriad of health problems and takes eight medications. She is in pain everyday. She’s been thinking about this surgery for over a year and a half. I’ve known S since we were in first grade. We’ve been fat together for over 30 years. So many memories, from slumber parties and proms to grown up relationship dilemma. We've always been there for each other, literally through thick and thin. S is a beautiful person, inside and out. I'm hoping and praying this surgery will be the answer to all her health problems.
I have considered this surgery many times myself and there is a tiny, horrible piece of me that is jealous of S. I don't want to be left alone here in Fattyworld. I want to lose a ton of weight, physically feel fantastic, have great self-esteem and get to wear cute clothes too! For now, I'll have to stick to the old-fashioned way, tracking food and feeling awful about myself when I'm not able to control my food.