Wednesday, March 10, 2010

The Same

I had a thought today that things have been mostly the same for me for my whole adult life.

I've been overweight since I was a teen. I attempt to lose weight time and time again but I'm never successful for any length of time.

I have been alone for what adds up to years. I've tried hard to find the love of my life and been in a few relationships but ultimately ended up on my own.

I've lived within a 10 mile radius of where I was born. I've moved three times but I'm now in the home that I'm pretty sure I will live in for the rest of my life.

I've worked at the same school for 13 years. I've had three different positions within that school but my car doesn't know how to drive anywhere else.

And although I've had a deep yearning to be a mother since childhood, I'm still without children.

What if a year from now.....things are still the same.


  1. Keep your spirit up! IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!!!

  2. Keep your eye on the prize! I've been at this going on 5 years, which sounds like eon's, but it almost feels like months at this point. It will happen!

  3. You are the one driving the car babe - make it go where you want it to go! Good luck with everything, I'm pulling for you.

  4. I have a birthday coming up, and I've been worrying about the same things... How many years can everything remain the same? I feel you lady...

  5. Hoping very much that a year from now things are hugely different for you.