Saturday, April 10, 2010

Paid Up

Well, I just put two HUGE checks in the mail to the clinic and to the donor agency. My savings is nearly gone. It's not the money that bothers me. I just keep thinking if this is not successful, that bank account will represent everything. Empty womb, empty home, empty life, empty bank account.

I'm trying hard to keep positive but writing those checks make it seem really REAL and I'm starting to getting scared.

I will get pregnant.
I will get pregnant.
I will get pregnant.
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I hope.

10 comments:

  1. You will get pregnant!
    You will get pregnant!
    You will get pregnant!


    I'm sure :-).

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  2. You will get pregnant!!
    You will get pregnant!!

    You're going to have a baby!!
    You're going to have a baby!!

    You are going to be a mommy!!
    You are going to be a mommy!!

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  3. Billy and Kim already said what I was going to say.. So yes, YOU WIL GET PREGNANT!and you WILL HAVE A HEALTHY BABY!

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  4. I hear you. It's scary. I believe with everyone else though. You will get pregnant!

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  5. I hope you get pregnant. And believe me I've thought about this a lot - am I throwing money away? I don't think so, even if this last (and insanely FIFTH) try isn't successful, I'm glad we spent that money. We could have bought a new car (or a couple, maybe three?!) but I would always wonder...and what better thing to spend that money on? The chance of a baby - that's a big thing. And all my hopes go out to you, praying this first time is the charm!

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  6. So exciting! One more BIG thing to check off that list!

    And you WILL get pregnant!

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  7. I soooo get this post! I just posted last night a bit about my feelings about the money.
    Donor egg is a good shot, I will have my fingers crossed for you and will be checking your blog to see how it all goes for you.

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  8. Dream big or go home! Keep hoping and what you hope for may really come true! This will work for you too!

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  9. I totally understand the angst of sending away thousands of dollars. I hope that you will be well rewarded, and soon.

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  10. Just wanted to chime in with a chorus of, "You Will Get Pregnant!!" Sending you positive vibes & sticky-baby thoughts!

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