Monday, May 10, 2010


My donor didn't respond well to ovulation stimulation.
She has 10 follicles but they are very tiny.
My doctor is recommending canceling the cycle.

I'm bitterly disappointed.
What will it take to make me accept my fate.


  1. Oh dear Paige, I am so sorry. I am dissappointed for you. That's a tough call, they always say its quality over quantity, so if they aren't where they would like to see them, then I would lean towards their recommendation.

    I know there's nothing I can say to change the way you feel right now, so sending some love your way with hopes that the next stims is better. remember it is often darkest before dawn. xoxoxoxoxox

  2. I am so so sorry. What a disappointment.

  3. Paige, that's so disappointing and sad and I know it hurts to have the rug pulled out from under you. But DO take your RE's advice. Run. I find the RE's are usually more positive than they should be so when even they recommend pulling the plug, pull away. You deserve a healthy batch of eggs that will fulfill your dreams of motherhood. And that WILL happen. Unfortunately, a little delayed.

    When my donor was presented to me in March 2009 (after 5 months on the waiting list), I was told there was a catch. She is a school teacher and wants to wait until after the school year to cycle. Yes, made perfect sense but after waiting 5 months, I really didn't want to wait another 3. Argh, I know! Hugs!

  4. Oh Paige, I am so sorry. This is terrible news. You were so close... While it is a gut wrenching delay, it doesn't mean your dream ends.
    I like what Kim said, "it is darkest before the dawn." Your faith is being challenged - but we all know how strong you are (even if you don't feel it this minute) and so committed to your dream.

    Prayers and strength to you-- and a BIG hug.

  5. Paige I don't know what to say. I am so terribly sorry. Please keep us updated.

  6. I'm so sorry that this happened but I don't believe this failure spells out your fate. You are meant to be someone's mother and this isn't going to be the day that stops you from getting there. Do what you have to do here, cancel or whatever you feel ready to do and then keep pushing, Paige. You are a strong soon to be mama and you have all my positive thoughts and prayers on your side.

  7. I'm so sorry, Paige. I've been there twice and understand the horrible disappointment. My first donor had "small ovaries" and was canceled after a 3 month wait for her. Then, my second donor must have freaked out and disappeared the day before she was to start stims. They never heard from her again. I finally had luck with my third (the only proven of the 3, btw) and now I'm pregnant with twins.

    It's so frustrating, but it's fortunate that you have a doc who's looking out for you. You want to make sure that you have the best chance possible. Take a few days to process, get that nasty Lupron out of your system and then jump right back on the wagon. NEXT! It really sucks, but you are strong and determined. Things will work out for you. You'll be in my thoughts.

  8. Dangit. Honey I'm so sorry. I know how frustrating and upsetting this is with you having already taken the meds and such to prepare. I hope it's not too much of a set back and that you can go again in a month or two. Hugs to you.

  9. Oh Paige, I am so so sorry! How frustrating after everything so far...hugs for you...and ditto to the sentiments above, your time will come, try to be strong.

  10. Paige -
    I'm so sorry....your fate is to have a baby! Just remember that. This is just a stumble. You'll get those eggs and you'll be a mom!!!

    Hang in there!

  11. Oh Paige. How long ago this must feel now. I am so so glad to see you in the right place.

    Thanks for sharing this painful information. I sure helps me settle into trust even deeper than before.