I woke early this morning feeling out of sorts and blah. By 9am I couldn't seem to keep my eyes open so I went back to bed. I woke up two hours later feeling more like myself than I have in weeks. Hello, Self...It's been awhile. How are you?
Right now I feel calm and sure of what has happened and my decisions. And I feel a good strong dose of hope. There is still a bit of melancholy hanging around but it feels kind of good...like it's actually my own genuine emotion and not a drug induced crazy feeling.
For the first time in over two months, I have no drugs in my system. It is bittersweet relief for sure. Now I'm in for a different kind of two week wait. Waiting to get my period so I can start all over.