Saturday, May 29, 2010

Crabby Pants

A discontented, crabby day. What the heck is wrong with me? It is as though those things that usually make people happy have the opposite effect on me. Here I have a few days off and today seemed so long, I would start something and then become disinterested. C had invited me to their campground to hang out at the lake but I didn't go. The house is a pit but I didn't do any cleaning other than dishes. I am so fed up with my eating program, I want to quit. I've been forcing myself to eat things I don't really care for because they are good for me. I would tell myself it's like medicine and I'd down the vegetables. It was fine while I was at work, but here, with nothing to distract me? Yuck! I only gagged down a few bites of lunch and was having mad, mad cravings and was so hungry and literally unable to distract myself. I finally downed a spoonful of peanut butter but that didn't stop me. Only a kitkat did that. Why do I make it so drastic? I always do this and I always fail. grrrrrrrrrrrr I feel mentally ill and not myself.

I don't understand what happened? Yesterday I was so relaxed and feeling good about becoming healthier. Today I'm on Crazy Train. I'm making a list of things to do tomorrow. And I have to figure out what to do about my meals. I can't just keep eating stuff I don't like.


  1. AND I can't get that Lady GaGa song "Bad Romance" out of my head! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!

  2. Try not to beat yourself up for craving foods you enjoy - lifestyle changes are really hard to make, and good for you for deciding to make them!

    As you say, finding foods you like that fit into your meal plan is a great place to start. I love the Food Network website for new recipes and meal ideas - you can type in foods you like and see what recipes come up. A friend of mine once told me that a cup of tea is a helpful way to curb a craving - it's worked for me many a time, too.

    By the way, you're allowed to have a day of no cleaning or busy-ing, is good. And necessary!


  3. I hear you. I've spent so many years of my life fighting with food. On some level I still do I think too. I'm like you in that I refuse to eat things I don't care for just to be eating healthy although I'm finding many things that I would never eat before that I actually like.
    Hang in there and I hope tomorrow is better.

  4. Sorry you had such a day. I know how it is when you have all this free time and so much to do, but then don't feel like doing anything!
    Hope tomorrow will be a better day.

  5. I think it's the non-busy days that tend to throw me for a loop, I become what I call a grazer. So I meal plan in advance and make sure I don't have any pitfalls in the house.

    I do however keep a can of low or non fat whipped topping and whenever I get a sugar craving that I cant ignore, I zap a puff of whip cream in my mouth - delish and nearly guilt free (15 calories)

    I always negotiated with myself...for example. Ok if your really hungry - then drink a glass of water or tea (as Maddy suggested) and if ytou still want it then, you can have it. 9 times out of 10 - I didn't. The other good one is, well if you want it fine, but go burn all the calories FIRST. You'll either soon decide its not worth it- or you cam have ot guilt free. Hope these suggestions help and hope your day is better.

  6. Paige - speaking of songs, now I have Ozzy's "Crazy Train" going through my head. It's okay to feel that way - sometimes we do. I know I do. Try to do something good for yourself today and say a few nice things to you - and I mean look in the mirror and say them! It works. That, or you'll feel even more crazy! :-) Hang in there!

  7. I have been there on eating the foods I didn't like. I went straight gluten, wheat free, veggies daily earlier this year and was so hard on myself about it. It didn't do anything but make me hungry cause I didn't like eating that stuff. It didn't help me any.

    Food is hard sometimes and I try to remember that its the overall package that will get me there. I am still doing things that count towards my health and so are you. You'll get over this food hump once you find what works for you.