Thank you so much, Blog Family, for the comments and prayers. You'll never know how much that helps me cope. I can really count on you guys. You don't walk but run to support me and I adore you for that.
The bleeding stopped almost the moment I settled down at home. Emotionally, it was a very frightening evening but I didn't bleed through the night at all. Not a drop although the toilet paper was still pink this morning. Extremely light spotting today, like if I wasn't looking for it I wouldn't have noticed it.
The nurse called early to check on me and then again after she'd talked to Dr. A. She told me to take it a little easy today but it was ok to be at work, just keep a close watch for any bleeding. She said that after hearing my symptoms and that the bleeding had suddenly stopped the doctor was sure it was cervical irritation. Old blood pooling in the bottom of the uterus looking for a way out. If it had been a weak ultrasound he might think differently but he was extremely confident in what he'd seen. A perfectly strong embryo positioned just right in a healthy uterus. He didn't think I needed another ultrasound today and I'm fine with that. I am to watch things over the weekend and they will see me early next week, if needed.
I'm calm and believe it was what they say it was. I believe the crisis has passed. There was so much blood though. I'll never forget the moment when I discovered it. I've never been so close to full on hysteria. I think I did gasp out loud and I remember really fighting to keep quiet and not scream out. Afraid that if I started screaming, I wouldn't be able to stop.
I'll be on eggshells until our next ultrasound on Friday. I've had plans for months to purchase a certain item from a posh boutique when I was for sure that I was pregnant. A fancy place I don't usually shop. I was going to make a special trip there tonight but I couldn't bring myself to. If the doctor is wrong, I don't want that item hanging around the house. I was going to tell two of my closest friends about my baby tomorrow. Now, I don't think I should just yet.
What a harrowing experience....the happiest few hours of my life followed by the most frightening. Will we ever feel safe?