A Waiting Birthday

Hmm what to say about this, my 39th birthday? Pretty quiet. I gave myself a big splurge yesterday after acupuncture. I went to the Galleria and bought all new make up and a few things from Lane Bryant. I also got some to go cheesecake from the Cheesecake Factory to share with my family today.

My mom wanted to take me to lunch today but I've been playing around with a bit of a stomach bug since we got back from Branson. Either that or it's the medication. Everyone came over tonight to share the cheesecake. Mom gave me some sweet little baby quilts we used as babies made by my Aunt Coco and my mom's grandma. She wrote a beautiful note in the card about the quilts being good luck talismans for me and this cycle. I would have cried if I had been alone.

My donor gave me the best gift of all, of course. Sometimes I can't believe it's been so successful so far. 22 eggs and they all fertilized. Strong, healthy little guys. I feel so blessed and lucky and full of buoyant hope.

Waiting with butterflies constantly in my stomach and heart for tomorrow's embryo report. Constantly thinking about my little embryos warm and toasty, growing for me. For me. My babies. My family. Please survive and thrive, little cells. I believe in you, I believe in all you can become.