The pinwheel is slowing down a bit but certainly still spinning. I've gone to school yesterday and today to start preparing my classroom and even though I'm terrified the stress working in the hot classroom has made my embies leave, it has helped to be busy. I went to acupuncture today and there was a hugely pregnant woman in the waiting room. I'm trying to look at it as a good omen. The acupuncture helped calm my mind tremendously. I wish I could go every day.
My acupuncture angel said that my mantra right now should be: possibility. I'm trying hard to remember that even the chance at a pregnancy is a special thing. This is the first time in months I've had that. I need to keep that in the forefront of my mind....possibility.
Somehow I've gotten my daydreams back. Every time I have a negative thought I try to squash it with one of my baby dreams. Try being the operative word. This thought exchange happens..oh..about a zillion times an hour.
Four days past transfer and still nothing on the symptom watch. Unless you count a huge craving for copious amounts of red wine as a symptom.
6 days until test results.
You're craving red wine as a stress reduction, that's my guess. Glad you are feeling a bit more Zen. You have an excellent lining and safe place for your embies so do your best to remember that! Staying busy will help keep the stress at bay. When is your beta date?
ReplyDeleteI had very few symptoms when I got pregnant last summer and none this time around. So as neurotic about symptoms as I was and I totally understand if you are, it's a bummer because having them or not having them doesn't seem to be even remotely tied to success.
ReplyDeleteWhen is your beta?
Six more days? So you're almost halfway there. I'm glad your thoughts are calming down a little. I really like your acupuncturist's advice - I'm going to try to remember that. Possibility. Nice.
ReplyDeleteI like the idea of using a baby daydream to redirect your thoughts away from the negative. And I LOVE using Possibility as your mantra. I'm going in for acupuncture tomorrow and am totally using this!
ReplyDeleteSticky baby/ies thoughts to you :)
Thinking of you... in the long long long 2 week wait. Seems like it feels the same to most of us! Breathe.. you are in good company.. go see a funny movie or something distracting and enjoyable!
ReplyDeleteGlad you're feeling calmer and I hope the coming days go smoothly.
ReplyDeleteI like the very pregnant lady good omen... thinking of you and happy to hear you have a little more mental calmness!
ReplyDeletePossibility! Love it...I also like to hear about a fellow day dreamer! Sending you positive sticky baby(ies) thoughts!
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