A good day for me mentally but only because I've accepted that I'm probably not pregnant. Not being negative here, just realistic. I know, it's early, too early for symptoms, etc but this is what my intuition is telling me. Perhaps I'm just protecting myself. Don't know.
Today, I'm 5dp5dt. I think that's it. My 5 day transfer was 5 days ago. If they're still in there, they are 10 days old.
I never thought I'd be the type to be desperate to pee on a stick, but here I am, POAS desperation personified. I have two tests in the house from a previous cycle.
So, should I?
My first beta will be Friday, second beta Monday. Monday seems so far away. My clinic has a policy that they do not tell you your first beta results because they say you can't really tell for sure until you can compare both test results. They will give you the results of the first test, if you request them. I never thought I'd be the type to rebel against a clinic's policy.
So should I?
The thought of going into another weekend not feeling anything, not knowing anything at all, wondering....I'm not sure I could bear it.
I want my babies so badly.