Thursday, February 18, 2010

Money, Tests, Choices, NOT Binging

Phone conference with Money Lady:
On the phone she said I was well insured and it seemed like the total for everything would be much lower than I had thought. Yay!

She called back and said there was a mistake on the insurance provider's end and that anything for the donor wouldn't be covered.

I'm struck by the unfairness of having to pay, pay, pay for what most people get for free. Why can't I be in the "most people" category. I'm happy to pay if it means I can build a family but sheesh!

Blood Test Results:

FSH 15
LH 6
Testosterone 67 The normal range is 20-76. So I was in range but seems kinda high?
and many, many others.

Not sure what it means but I do know that I was not really able to find any success stories about women having success if their FSH was over 12 or so. I'm frightened of damaged eggs and damaged babies. Not sure I could survive that.

Choosing a Donor:

The donor agency can't seem to get in touch with my first choice. I have to make a decision and get some money in to both the agency and clinic by next Friday if I want to book the April cycle. Would I regret not waiting and just going for my second choice? Also, by waiting I would have time to go to my second opinion appointment and digest what he had to tell me. So very difficult to have patience. I want to get moving and become pregnant. This waiting can drive a person crazy.


Today was the second of two days of professional development. My back is aching from sitting all day long. And tomorrow will be more sitting for our usual Friday meetings. The PD provider is a marathon runner. She has such a lean little body. I can't help but wonder what it must feel to look like that.


I've been craving sugar like crazy all day long! I could so easily go into a binge here. So easily. I did have some sugar today. A few pieces of candy at the meeting, a couple small cookies at lunch and a cupcake with DollFace, but it was not mindless eating. I am trying very hard to will myself away from binging. Tomorrow is our Soul Food Luncheon in honor of Black History Month. God give me strength because I know that will be some good grub.


  1. Stopped by from L&F. My fsh was 13 at age 34. At 35 I had twin boys who are sleeping in the next room. I am not sure how old you are, but my RE always says that age trumps fsh. He still considers me "young" at nearly 38! (gasp! 38? When did that happen?!!?)

    Find a fsh friendly RE. It is still possible. I am living proof!


  2. I know I'm not typical, but my FSH was 68. I was told I'd never get pregnant with my own eggs. 12 days after being told that, I conceived. My daughter is now 8 3/4 (the 3/4 is very important when you are eight.) I used OPK's every single day and got very lucky.

  3. Another here from L&F. I would also recommend finding a high FSH friendly doc. My first doctor refused to treat me when my FSH came back at 22, at age 34. Went to Cornell in NYC and now have a daughter via my first IVF (after a horrible response that yielded one embryo.) At age 37, conceived naturally using OPK's, and who knows what my FSH was at that point!

  4. Also here from LFCA.

    My FSH was 16 when I was 34. After finally getting an auto-immune thyroid problem diagnosed and treated, I conceived on my 4th (first to lead to pregnancy) IVF at the age of 37. That resulted in an uneventful, full-term pregnancy and the birth of my son.

    Certainly donor can be a good (if expensive) option and is likely to be the fastest way to grow your family. But high FSH doesn't preclude conceiving, even with ART, and several new studies are finding no correlation between FSH levels and the risk of m/c or aneuploidy (I can provide citations, if you want).

    I have gotten a ton of support from this board: and the related (linked) boards there, as I've journeyed through infertility treatment as a high FSHer.

  5. I'm also stopping by from LFCA. A good friend was cancelled for three consecutive cycles due to high FSH (12-15) and just managed to squeak by under the cutoff for IVF in November. She's now expecting twins. Also, Julia Indichova (who wrote Inconceivable) had way high FSH...if I'm not mistaken it was in the 40s at one point. And she conceived her second child after numerous doctors told her it would be impossible. I think there are quite a few stories out there (and here - I enjoyed looking through the comments from other posters).

    And I'm so sorry about the insurance. Those companies are TERRIBLE.

  6. My FSH at 33 was considered 'borderline' at 11 with a low ovarian reserve (as low as 6 one month). I completed one successful IVF cycle this summer (just turned 34) where I amazingly had 11 eggs retrieved and ended up with 4 viable embryos. I hope you get good advice and find a path that leads to your dreams.