Reiki massage. I would go back everyday if I could. I haven't breathed this easy for a very long time. It was a heaven-like break for my brain. For the most part, the only thoughts I had while she was working on me were about the sensations going on in my body and being aware of my breathing. I do believe some hippy trippy healing went on inside my body.
The sensation of energy (or spirit or soul or divinity or whatever) moving in and out and around in my body was real. She started by putting her hands on my legs and I immediately felt a lot of tugging sensations in my uterus area. She asked me to envision golden light surrounding my head and that I was breathing in the golden light. These visions came to me easily and gave me a warm feeling. At one point the light went dark and toward the end I envisioned beautiful golden sparks flying out of my head but I wonder now if they were really trying to go into my head not out.
Different points that she worked on my body created different sensations. When she was working on my shoulders and head, I felt butterflies in my stomach and a very warm melting sensation around the points she was working. At this time, my tight chest loosened up and my breathing that has been "heavy" feeling since I lost Greyson became very effortless and light feeling. My whole body felt very weightless, I almost felt as if I was escaping my body for moments at a time. Like I was trying to have an out of body experience, but the energy kept circling back inside me. The grapefruit sized knot I carry with me in my neck loosened and became very warm and melty feeling.
She worked on my head and I could feel the areas where I usually feel dizziness change. For a time I became very dizzy and sort of high feeling but then those feelings fluttered away and this lightness entered my head too. My head felt very empty and weightless. (Insert appropriate joke here :)
Afterwards I became very tearful and thanked her for her work. Beforehand I had told her about the still birth, dizzy spells, headaches and this huge knot at the base of my neck. Afterwards I asked her to tell me about myself. I can't remember a lot of what she said but they were all things you would expect related to what I had told her. She said my pelvic area feels empty and injured because I'm still healing. Something about the pancreas but I don't remember what. My diaphragm was very tight and was holding in bad energy which is why it's been difficult to breath. She said it felt like I'd had a very bad blow to the diaphragm which is related to the respiratory system. But then she said something about resetting something, I can't remember what, because I was having trouble sleeping so resetting this would help correct the sleeping problem. I hadn't told her I was having trouble sleeping.
Then she gave me instructions about detoxing over the next few days by drinking more water than usual and putting lemon into it, eating raw apples and taking a bath with salt and vinegar in it. She said that the bad energy let loose in the body heads for bloodstream and then the liver so we need to help the body get rid of those toxins.
I scheduled a whole hour next month.
Sidenote: When I first went in there and told her about losing Greyson, she immediately asked me if I had a support group. I just blurted out what happened with the baby showing up at the meeting last night. She was horrified and offered to mention something to the leader. Turns out she founded that very support group years ago. The randomness of the world.....