Just a few minutes to blog. Hysterscopy, poylpectimy and D & C today. I'm not nervous or scared. The worst has already happened. I told S. that on the phone and she said it was time for me to start scrambling. You know, when you're down in the dumps, then you have to scramble up the hill. So here I am flexing my scrambling muscles. It might look ugly but I'm doing my best.
I have been obsessively looking at profiles of donor egg women online. As much as I say I'm still thinking about it, really I think deep down I've made my choice. I cannot stop this journey. I just can't. I've already got a few favorite profiles, one woman in particular I can't get out of my mind.