Monday, December 6, 2010

In an hour I have to meet with the funeral man about putting my sweet littel baby in the ground

I don't think I can survive this

44 comments:

  1. I am so sorry about the loss of your darling baby Paige. It is supremely unfair for a mother to have to bury her son. Love and prayers for you both.

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  2. Hi Paige, I am here from inBetween's blog, and wanted to tell you how utterly sorry I am, and how much my heart hurts for you right now. This is the most unfair and horrible thing that can ever happen to a woman. I am wishing you all the strength and endurance that you can gather to help you through your grief. It is just so so terribly unfair and wrong, and I wish there was something more I could do.

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  3. This is beyond tragic and an abundantly difficult time. I hope you have friends/family who will help attend to some of the details (I went through this with a friend who lost her twin boys, born too soon, and we attended to a number of details for her and her husband, things no mother should have to endure).

    You must survive even through the deep darkness of these early days. One minute at a time.

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  4. Good lord, how terrible. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.

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  5. Oh, Paige, I really hope that your family rallies around you through this. You definitely do not need to be doing it alone. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  6. God will bless you with his Grace Paige, he will see you through this, my prayers are with you.

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  7. I am coming from LAFCA. I read this post and the few posts before. How awful to be at the height of elation and then to be hit was the most tragic loss. I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  8. Paige you will take good care of him now, just as you always have. He has always had his perfect Momma looking out for him.

    He is a very loved baby.

    I am thinking of you Paige. If only I knew how to help. I remember those days. There is no light, no air. You are not alone for one second.

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  9. I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts.

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  10. I am so sorry for your loss. There are truly no words.

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  11. Dear Paige, I hate that you have to go through this. You will survive this. You'll look back & not know how you did it, but you will survive. I wish there was something I could do for you. Sending you Love, comforting thoughts & prayers.

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  12. I am so, so sorry for the loss of your baby boy.

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  13. Paige, I have no words just please know you are in my thoughts. ♥

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  14. I'm so sorry for your loss...there are no words that can take away your pain. ((HUGS))

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  15. Paige, this is a situation I really wish you didn't have to face. I'm really praying you have someone there with you as you go through this meeting and these next few days, weeks, months. I can't tell you enough how sorry I am.

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  16. I am so sorry for you, you are in my thoughts.

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  17. Dear Paige, I am crying reading your post. No mother should have to bury her son and I wish you all my strength to get you through this. Praying for you. I am glad you have your mother there with you through this to lean on.

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  18. Dearest Paige - I am deeply sorry for the tragedy of your loss. I also lost my baby - unexplained stillbirth at 37weeks 5 days. I too, buried my beloved child and it was a horrible, dark time for my husband and I. I understand what you are facing and I am so deeply sorry. If you need someone to talk to, please feel free to contact me through my blog - my name should link you to my site. A great resource for us was www.missfoundation.org
    Sending you much love and peace.

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  19. I wish you peace during this difficult time. I also hope you have a support structure around you to hold you up. Please go talk to your pastor/priest/rabbi/grief counselor/whomever. Know that the online community is behind you.

    LFCA

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  20. I am so, so, sorry to hear of the loss of your son. I'm a lurker who rarely comments but please know I am thinking about you.

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  21. Know that through this so difficult time there are so many of us that are standing with you in spirit and holding your hand. Hugs to you.

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  22. Paige, I came here via mention from a number of other blogs that I read. I am so very, very sorry about the loss of your son. I wish with all my heart that there was something I could do for you. All my thoughts are prayers are for you and your beloved child.

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  23. I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of your sweet little son. Please know that you are in my thoughts and I'm wishing you peace during these very difficult days.

    (((hugs)))

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  24. Oh Paige, I am deeply sorry for the loss of your little sweet boy. My thoughts of live and comfort are headed your way. You are not alone. We are here to hold you up. You can get through this. Breath by breath, minute by minute, day by day. Keep posting if it helps. (((hugs))).

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  25. I know from experience there are no words that will ever make you feel better. I can, however, tell you this: You CAN survive this and you WILL. You will live for your precious little boy; he was alive and he will forever be in your heart.

    I'm so very sorry for your loss...

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  26. Here from LFCA - I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to imagine your pain. Holding you in my thoughts.

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  27. i know how you are feeling, and this is the worst of it. use the love of your friends and family to carry you thru this dark, horrible time, and know that your son will always be with you- nothing will ever change that, you are his loving momma and he will never be forgotten. its so hard to say goodbye in this way, when you wanted a lifetime... but he was so loved and that will never change. here is a poem that very much helped me-

    late fragment, by raymond carver

    and did you get what
    you wanted from this life, even so?
    i did.
    and what did you want?
    to call myself beloved, to feel myself
    beloved on the earth.

    your son was so beloved. please take care and be gentle with yourself.

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  28. Hi Paige. I found your blog thanks to Maddie over at Late for a Very Important Pregnancy. There are no words to adequately convey just how much my heart aches for you. You will absolutely be in my thoughts and prayers. I know that the thought of tomorrow is simply too much right now so please be gentle with yourself and just take it day by day or even hour by hour if you need to. You are not alone hon. XX

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  29. Here from LFCA. So, so very sorry for your loss. I hope you can be kind to yourself and take the passing of time in as small increments as necessary. One breath at a time, keep breathing. We are here for you.

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  30. Paige, I am here with you holding your hand and supporting you. Let everyone around you - your family, your friends, your blogsisters - carry you right now with our love. You are not alone. We are here.
    Love,
    Maddy

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  31. I can't remember which blog I linked from but I wanted to come by and send you a hug. You will survive this, one minute, one hour, and one day at a time. When I lost my son it was so hard to just keep breathing. Eventually it got a little easier. Now it has been nearly a year, and although I'm not the same person I was, I can laugh and look forward to things. I am so, so very sorry you don't have your little boy with you and I hope you have some people to lean on with you.

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  32. I cannot say enough how sorry I am.
    When I lost my babies, I found it helpful to have something tangible I could wear to feel them with me.
    When you are ready, this artist makes beautiful, heartfelt pieces to honor your little one. I wear my footprints on a mothers' heart necklace all the time.

    www.labelledame.com

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  33. Hi Paige, I am Nell's roommate and she told me about you and this sad situation. I know I don't know you, but just wanted you to know that I am praying for you. The joy of the Lord is your strength. Take it one day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time and know that you are loved. <3

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  34. Oh sweetie! Holding you and your son in my heart.. .as I know G-d is doing. Hang in there. We love you. One day at a time.. just one foot in front of the other.

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  35. I wish I was with you to give you hugs, help take care of you and cry with you. I'm so sorry Paige.

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  36. Paige, this is heartbreaking. I am mourning with you. I am thinking about you alot.. This is just unfair-- I can't put it in words. Hugs, hugs, hugs.

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  37. I'm here via Batty Nurse's blog (and via LFCA)

    I am so very sorry for your heartbreaking loss. To lose your baby son like this is tragic. So unfair. Devastating.

    You are in my thoughts as is your little angel.

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  38. Here via LFCA. I'm so terribly sorry for the loss of your son, no one should have to endure this type of pain. Life is painful unfair at times. Please know that you are not alone, there are so many of us sending thoughts and prayers your way. My husband & I lost our daughter 23wks into my pregnancy about 5mths ago and I too never thought I could recover. Although it isn't easy and I still miss her every day, in time you find a way to move forward. Praying you are given the strength you need to get through each day.

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  39. The cruellest blow is for your baby to die - I know your pain. You can survive this most gruelling of times by living for your precious baby boy - he would want his mum to find a path to happiness again. For now though,one moment at a time and lean on those who love you. We all grieve for the life of your wee boy. I am so very sorry.

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  40. I wish with all my heart we could take this pain away. While you may not feel it now, you will find the strength to make it through, one day at a time, one minute at a time. Your family and friends (including those of us here) will be here to help carry you. And I truly believe your son is now your guardian angel, with you for all time.
    Much love and strength to you, especially in these coming days.

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  41. Paige,

    I have been reading your blog for a while now and have been so impressed and inspired by your courage, joy, faith, and beautiful perspective on life.

    My deepest condolences on what you should never have had to face. I'm so very sorry.

    TKK

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  42. Dear Paige, it breaks my heart to hear you in so much pain. I wish words could make this better. Know that you have lots of blog sisters who love you dearly. - inB

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